Is this selfish as fuck? yes, do I give a shit? nope
I just wanna archive this masterpiece that happened (today) and that's all
Context: I really, really love the person mentioned because of their asshole attitude, their traits, their....his....'sweet bod' and that's it
15:02
Came home after both school and work had been shut due to my sister going on her annual arson attacks checked Twitter and my FUCKING SENPAI CHANGED?!?!?!?!!!
I had an ascending moment of panic and I started shaking in fear, I know it sounds dramatic but I really do love this guy and seeing this broke me inside a little
I don't feel like doing a play by play but lemme just go into why this broke me a bit more as well as some of the things I did outside of this
15:06
I didn't scream but I did start panting and hyperventallating, ended up stepping outside for a bit before double checking
Took me a full hour to process what I was witnessing, alongside filling the void I kept doing calming things. Also maybe have cried at some point, nothing too much but I did feel my throat go hoarse and felt something rolling down my cheeks.
15:10
I'm more amazed I have Photoshop on my laptop rather than how I managed to make this profile look good
15:50
This part worried me the most, like I'd get just online but...I mean...I really was on the verge of kicking ass for him
17:15
I at least had fun speaking with 'Logan, ngl I felt kinda giddy hearing them compliment my dumb random dream cockatail of choco frog cupcakes, it was so bittersweet.
17:21
I was still worried though and kept this up the whole day
As you can see, very worried
I really did though, like I know it's dumb to cry over someone who barely answers your messages or notices you in general but I